i'm sorry, we won't be able to meet again because i'm about to die. i'm sorry. i never expected our relationship to become like this. for the longest time, i had always thought about taking my own life. since before i even met you, so none of this is your fault. when i thought about the rest of my life, i saw the every day struggle to live with the pain until my dying breath. clinging to such a bleak future made it impossible for me to find any reason to keep on living. i'm sorry... i only wanted to erase my existence from this world beautifully, but... ugh... i don't get it... what am i doing? i'm terribly sorry for calling you so suddenly. ah... i'm exhausted. thank you for everything. goodbye.